I’m sorry, sir, I didn’t mean to break down and cry like that. It’s just that I imagined this moment so different! I thought I would love you.
And I thought I would have known you for more than an hour or was it two? I’m sorry, sir, was I not good enough for you?
No offense taken, I’ve never been good enough for anybody so why should I expect to be good enough for you?
I’m sorry sir, but perfection has never been my thing. But on the other hand I’m the queen of rejection so this doesn’t really hurt me. But sir, I feel a connection here between me and you.
See, I can see past your lies and I know you’re lookin’ for more than just another good erection and another good injection.
I can see it in your eyes that you’re lacking something just like I am! And I’m sorry, sir, for prying but I just want to know why you’re okay with slowly dying?!
You have so much love but you’re misapplying it. You’re relying on those needles to but a fake grin on your face. And you’re denying the loneliness that has knowingly chewed a trench in your heart!
And now you’re sitting here sighing after another good buy that’s denying the beauty that was supposed to be beautiful years down the line.
And when it’s the dead of night, you’ll lay there crying because you’re sick of complying and sick of lying and sick of trying.
And sir, I’m telling you, when you feel like dying, PLEASE keep trying because even though it doesn’t feel like it, I know at least one person who is always overlying.
I’m sorry, sir, but you were meant for so much more than these cheap love scenes that leave us both so broken! And when we walk out these doors it seems we walk out more hurt than when we walked in! And I refuse to let all this go unspoken.
I’m sorry, sir, but I see STRAIGHT through your mask! And I know how it feels to have somebody see through them! It kind if makes you feel condemned.
But I promise, sir, I’m not here for that! I was here to find love, too! I was here to fill the growing trench in my heart and all of the above.
I wanted was to rid myself of those monsters that follow me through the night. I wanted to forget about the pain that has stained my brain.
I wanted to forget his face, I wanted to forget her face. I wanted to forget the loneliness that won’t leave my space. I didn’t want to sit up alone all night and pace.
I needed to FEEL a strangers embrace! All just encase God’s grace won’t replace all of this bitter hate!
Did you ever experience God’s grace? Or have you always felt out of place in outer space in your very own hiding place that became your imaginary place and now it’s a display case of your not-so-holy place?
Now you have your perfect poker face that stays in place just like the rest of the human race.
And I’m sorry, sir, to be speaking your heart, but I know the pain all to well. But just like I said, I feel a connection here between you and me.
And sir, I barely even know what I’m saying! I’m sorry, sir, but I must say, put down your dope because it will never truly help you cope, trust me.
Whatever did happen to all of your hope?
Did you hang it high and pray every night that your dreams would come true, then come just to find out that dreams never come true?
Did the monsters lure you in with their enticing sin and make you feel like you could win but then just knock you down like a bowling pin? And then, “STRIKE, YOU’RE OUT!”
Oh, sir, I am sorry. But don’t you know all the answers to the unanswered questions lie within?
But you have to begin to WANT it or you’ll never have it.
And sir, I’m telling you, pick up that hope again! It’s how your faith is created! And I know you’ve hated and you’ve waited and you’re sedated but none of that matters to Him!
He didn’t leave you vacated and you’re not unrelated. Look at me! We’re practically the same.
And sir, I think I know more than anyone how hard it is to trust Him, but I’m tellin’ you, He WILL take away that grim.
And sir, I think I know more than anyone that He has never left you! No matter how much dew covers your eyes, He’s right by your side!
And sir, I think I know more than anyone that His mercy will cover all your mistakes from the past, present, and future!
And sir, I think I know more than anyone that He loves us deeper than we could ever imagine being loved.
And one last thing, sir, I’ll take that mask for you.
